If we are the products of the sum total of our experiences at the hand of our parents and the way we relate to others within our adult relationships are because of the things we learned from our primary 'romantic' relationships with our mothers and fathers...
well, all I can say is that my Dad really did a number on me. I think I have unresolved abandonment issues. As well as my obvious tendency to fall for those that are emotionally unavailable. This next year is going to be the year that I have some therapy to try and work things out. I'm a strong girl (or so I'm always being told), but I could do with some help. And maybe tell my Dad to go fuck himself for once and for all (something i really should have done years ago).Which would be easier if there weren't still some weird part of me that wants his love and approval. God knows he hasn't done anything to earn mine - and I'm not counting the token gestures that he chucks my way occasionally when it suits him (if Rachel approves of course, god forbid that he would ever do anything to help me when I ask without having to get the nod from her first ffs)
All i can think is that when Loki is older, if he ever needs anything from me I will never ask anyone's permission to take action.
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